Final Time is over!

Thank you God, without you I would've just gave up.
My grades looked like it couldn't recover, but You told me to do the best as much as You want me to do. God, I'm thankful that even though it was days without sleepings and very tiresome days, You gave me hope. Jesus Christ's cross. Whenever I look at it, it fills me completely with joy and peace. This world is painful, and more painful things are yet to come. BUT I believe in Jesus' Cross, and that's where the power I get for living in this sinful world.
I'm sinful man. Everyday I commit sin, do not listen to my God.
Do not follow His words, and I like to just live with the world.
How deadly sinful I'm. Without Jesus' Cross, I would've thrown to Hell thousand times, but I live only by this cross. The love that God gave me to live. Amen.

Fall 2009, Finals Time

Finals Time is back!
I'm not studying and I'm sleepy... Hah.. I just wasted 2 hours on laptop to fix network connection issue. For some reason, it can't connect to restricted.utexas.edu
It worked before, so I tried bunch of different methods to fix it, but I couldn't...
Ah.. and then I realized that I wasted a lot of time. 2 hours in final time worth a lot. Every hour, every minute counts, but I always slack off at the end of the semester. Since it felt like semester is already over, even though everybody studied, I didn't.
I believe God has given me this studying because He wants me to do it. God has plan for me, and this studying would be directly or not directly affect my life, but it would have a factor on my life either way.
Today, I didn't follow His words as he wants me to, and I'm ashamed and I'm sorry. God has a plan and I really want to follow it, but sometimes I forget the objective of life that God given me and just want to enjoy in this world.
Good grades doesn't not really matter to me. I'm not saying grades don't matter, but I'm just saying it would be just a small part of my life when I consider the God's work ahead of me. But I think God want me to do my best. So I will.

He is preparing the way.
And He wants me to be ready.
Thru training and through every bit of life,
He is preparing my way.
And He wants me to be ready,
So that I will be ready when He calls me home.

I'm following His way.
And I want to be ready.
Thru training and through every bit of life,
I'm following God's way.
Then, I will be ready.
I will be ready to go to my home, my true home.

Ebay

Ebay is
Time Consumer,
Money Consumer.
But everyone just go back
and look around and find good cheap items.
Many items look scatchy,
so I just go for power users :P

Idk

Kinda busy and not busy at the same time.
No time to write blogs.

Studying for the test :)

Studying for my computer science logic test :)
ERRERERER I need someone to help me...

P.S. why is html not really work in here?
can't put the music player to play music for longer than one day.

My Head Hurts

Whenever I do not follow God's words and follow what I want I get this headache like no other.
Sins. Why I'm commiting them? Why don't I repent?
Doing whatever w/o faith is sin.
From today's QT, God questioned my faith.
Am I really believing God with all my heart?
Answer is no, and I really dislike the fact that it is.
I believe that Jesus would lead me the way to have faith in the Lord.
My God, Savior, Lord, Jesus Christ please save me from these sins.
I repent, I repent. I truly want to repent with all my heart.
Please give me strength so that I may get rid of these sins that keep me away from you.
God thank you for listening to this sinner.
I'm waiting for the day to meet you.
Until then, let me know only you Lord.
Nothing else. Let me only pray for You.
Let me only want you nothing else.
You are my number #1 precious.
You are my number infinite precious.
Nothing else is precious than you, Lord. Amen.

I believe, and no one can take my faith away.

After QT training, I'm sitting in a chair and should go to sleep within 10 mins.
So this will be short, but I just wanted to share that if you believe God, no one else can take your faith away. No, not even you, Satan.
I will not give away this faith.
I will not give away this eternal life for any hard circumstances and trials since God will protect me and keep me safe in his arm. I believe in our Lord and God Jesus Christ that He will always be my Savior and Redeemer and will always listen to me. Even though I'm not perfect and I will never be, He received me for what I am, and I thank God for it.
"Jesus, I won't throw away my faith and I know that You will help me on any circumstances to have strong belief in you. I want to hold You stonger and be close to You.
Let my selfness die in Your cross, and
let me always aim for what You aim,
think for what You make me think for,
hope for what You hope for,
learn for what You want me to learn,
pray for what You want me to pray,
and *DO whatver you want me to DO.
Faith without action is not a faith at all. The faith results in fruits and it will be known.
Please God, let me listen to You by doing QT and reading Bible, and DO as what you say.
I hope You to be always with me, and I believe that You will.
Let Your will be done, not mine.
In Jesus name, I pray Amen."

*DO - it's just "do", but I wanted to embrace the word

Great Picnic!

It was great weather that Lord provided!
It was cloudy, but it was fresh and not hot day.
Good boned rib of pork(sam gyup sal: 삼겹살). It was delicious!
I ate so fast, and it's just amazing how I did it :P
At the morning, I was like "Lord, you said you would give sunny weater! Why is it so cloudy?" and was disappointed. But God has his plan and many people enjoyed the cool weather.
Everything might not go as we expected, but we should know God has great plan than what we plan. It's true that you should pray to Him for you wants, but we must not be disappointed or even be argry at Him for not fulfilling what we want. He has greater plan than you expected, and if you are in Him, then you should be able to see later that God always provided you with best ways.
So I pray,
"God, please let your will be done. Your way shall be revealed and let me be thankful to You for all of the best ways that you lead me. Be always with us and lead me to your way."

He is watching.

He is watching over my heart
He is watching over my mind
He is watching over my soul
He is watching over my body
He is watching over my thinking
He is watching. He is watching
He is the Lord, Jesus Christ, Our Savior.

Through QT today, he showed my deep black, coal-black heart which was filled with inscribed sins. "Judah's sin is engraved with an iron tool, inscribed with a flint point, on the tablets of their hearts ... "(Part of Jeremiah 17:1)

I didn't know how my heart was, but God knew.
"I the LORD seach the heart and examine the mind, to reward a man according to his conduct, according to what his deeds deserve." (Jeremiah 17:10)

He showed me my heart and said He is watching over my heart and let me know that my heart is completely black, covered by my sins. I didn't know that I had that many sins that it could cover the whole heart, but God said I do. Through Jesus' blood, it's only way to clean my heart. Only way to become God's children.
I will follow you Jesus, I will follow the path of Cross. I want to die in cross with You today, and nail my sins into that cross and live as Jesus lives in me. Without Jesus, that cross will be the end of my life, but through Jesus, I gained new and eternal life of Jesus. Jesus is the way. Only way. Only way!

"God please let me to put down all my desires, and follow You, Lord. In Jesus name I pray. Amen"

Being Sick is Sick

AH......... get away sickness.
Don't pull me down to the bed, not letting me to get done with anything.
I have a cold with the cough and runny nose, and I also have little bit of headache.
Oh God please heal me.
I'm very weak against the sickness.
Oh God heal me.

10/02/09 My QT

"your adulteries and lustful neighings, your shameless prostitution! I have seen deen your detestable acts ... Woe to you ... How long will you be unclean?" (Part of Jeremiah 13:17)

Through Bible, God revealed my sins.
I thought I was done with it, but yesterday, the Satan's temptation grew and I was standing hard to overcome it, but I didn't pray and I didn't rely on God to get rid of these temptation and cleanse my heart. But in today's QT, God showed his frustration on the sins that I never was able to overcome. Through my dad, He told me to pray continually, so that I wouldn't fall for these sins, but I didn't. I gave my usualy excuse: that I didn't have enough time. But today through QT, he showed his frustration and anger toward the sin, but also lamenting over my soul. I was sorry to God. He is keep trying to purify me and do His work through me, but I kept on sinning, so God couldn't use me as His will. I repented. I prayed that God would free from these sins. I believed, and He amazing got rid of all the sin's temptation from me.
Still I haven't prayed much, and I want to pray more.

"Please God allow me to follow You like a pure sheep. Amen."

QT, head ache, tests

My QT disciple training is crushing me and my sin into pieces, I want to start over knowing the one and only way.

My head is aching... it could be my cold, or it could be from lack of sleep, or too much concentration on the test or else.

I have two tests tmr that I didn't pretty much study for, and it's 11:41pm. I'm sick and tired. Don't want to study. I also don't want the studying to interrupt my QT time. I need to sleep soon. I gotta study now.

Quiet Time

Moved my Quiet Time to morning.
It's really hard when it comes to sleeping early and going to class without much of sleep,
but it's just amazing how God wakes me up in the morning and gives me strength to have QT.
I decided to do QT in business building, and today there was a fire drill(emergency drill?) in the business building. It was at the end of QT, and because of that drill I could have the breakfast.
God's miracles(letting me wake up early, letting me to have breakfast), even though it's small, are moving my heart. It's good that I'm doing QT in the morning, the day starts with the words of God, and the day goes by smoothly.
It would be hard for me for several weeks or more, but I think God will do his work to keep me up and make my soul filled with joy of winning the everday's life by His words.

God! Thank You! :)

Test Tmr(Tommorow).

I'm not completely ready for it.
I was considering studying more.
But instead watched One Night Two Days(1박2일)
It was really funny, but it left me a lot of things to do.

I'm gonna get to work!
I hope the test is easy.

I pray God give me strength to study what I need for tonight(or rather dawn). Amen.
I hope everybody who is studying the test to do good job!
Yeah!

My Background

I really like this background(since green is my favorite color)

What's in your background?(in the tone of Capital One's phrase, "What's in your wallet?" lol)

I will try to post several more cool backgrounds later.

Use it if you want!

Sinful Nature

I'm living in this sinful world with my sinful body...
I sometimes can't control me from doing sinful things;
I sometimes can't control me from listening to Satan's whispers;
I sometimes can't control me from listening to my body's desire.

But I believe, the Satan will not win over me.
Jesus will win over my soul and set me free of these sins.
But I believe, I will be defeating all the evil desires with Holy Sprit that enables me.
I'm weak, but Jesus makes me strong.
I will not proclaim to be strong because since then I will become weak.

Jesus. Please always be with me and save me from the evil desires.

Amen.

First day blogging...

Green 0range(it's number 0) is here.

MY dear dear. I don't know if I can put a lot of effort into it.

My name's initial is SJ as you can see in this picture. I drew this green orange(it's not lime! lol)

and I like it.